Hi, my name is Elvira, and I'm a blogoholic
I'm starting to come to terms with my ex's condition--although I can't help but do a mini-rant here about the horrible docs he's been dealing with. Over four months ago, L's sis and I took him to the doc and told them that in addition to depression, he had some sort of neurological damage that had been getting worse as time went on. We'[d noticed the symptoms--including poor manual dexterity, falling, etc. for quite some time. The docs just looked at us like we were crazy, and scheduled him for physical therapy. Their ideal of "treatment" was, as BG likes to say, like a couple of monkeys trying to fk a football.
Finally, they figured out something else might be up, and scheduled the neuro testing, where they discovered his condition. The guy who delivered the news to him was very abrupt and cold. I wasn't there, and it's lucky for him, because I don't know if I could have been trusted to contain myself.
Anyway, on top of all that, I caught a very nasty case of the flu, and was completely immobilized for the last several days. Didn't even turn on Herman the Mac--imagine that!
In any case, while lying around moaning, I started to think very dark thoughts. I felt like I had hit bottom, and this latest bit of news was just the tip of the iceberg. For one thing, I realized that I've become addicted to the internet, and that although I love it to death, it might be time to assess where I was going before I did indeed love it...to death.
The blogging bug has been affecting my relationship, my health, my stamina. I have neglected a lot of things; a lot of my normal routines; a lot of everyday activities that are necessary to live some sort of "real life." My eating habits are terrible; I'm not getting any exercise; I'm smoking so much I don't even want to think about it; and certain crucial things that I need to do have been put on the back burner.
So does this mean I'm going to give up blogging? Hell no! I just have to figure out how to fit it in more reasonably--devote x number of hours or days a week to it, and take care of my other shit as well.
I was joking with another blogger awhile back about the blogging/internet fixation thing. I said I guarantee that soon enough there will be support groups springing up for internet addicts. And, of course, they will take place--where else?--online.
The next step, of course, will be a new malady listed in the upcoming edition of the DSM--something like blogging addictive disorder. I can only guess what kind of drugs they will come up with for that one.
Do any of you guys have this problem? If so, I'd love to hear about it, and how it affects you--and if you've managed to "cure" yourself of this obsession, I'd be very interested in that too.
Once again, thank you for your comments and kind words. I will respond to all comments, old and new, if at all possible, as soon as possible.